9th August 2013 toady is EID. It's 9: 43 am so not early hour of the day by normal standard but considering today is a holiday and yesterday I had slept by 3.30 am I take this liberty to call it quite early . Now if I will tell you what woke me up so early .A very strange and interesting thought woke me up - balance sheet of life . I got up with a thought " how the balance sheet of life will look like " and when i started examining my thought little deeper as in what all factor would be considered to prepare the balance sheet of life all sorts of complex thought started coming to my mind . My mind was processing these thoughts at the speed of super computer but overlapping of these thoughts , parameters , life situations made the output so slow that it jammed my tiny brain itself . So I finally decided that I will take these entangled thoughts one by one and try to untangle them slowly slowly . But before being surgeon of my thought and operate it meticulously i would start with some important incidences of my life which might have made me look inward.
During my early childhood I was very much passionate about going to an English medium school because I wanted to speak english . Finally this dream of mine became reality and i got admission in to a great school in Bihar named Sainik school Tilaiya . During my days in Tilaiya I discovered that I had great panache for learning new words in English and use them to make my english little complicated to understand ( I didn't know that around same time world is getting a company which will become of the most admired tech company of the world and its founder Steve job would be one of the finest practitioner of SIMPLICITY in tech world) . As a teenager one word which struck immediate chord with me to describe my religious/spiritual self was Agnostic and hence I became self proclaimed Agnostic . I was really in love with this word agnostic and never left even iota of chance to proclaim that I am agnostic . Later on i realized that this word is very interestingly positioned.If you just try to plot this word on a number line you will find that it takes the place of a very interesting number , number zero . You know zero is one of the most important number but its placement ,too, is very interesting . It just cuts through a heap of numbers and separate it into negative and positive . Thankfully I got fascinated with the word agnostic and not with non believer ( panache for complexity can be good some time ) otherwise I would have started with the left side of the zero where lies heap of "negatives".
So I was equipositioned for my journey to inner world it was just a matter of time to see which path will I would be choosing to go through the journey long one - from negative side or short one from positive side .
For today I will stop here and will look into other factor which made me take the inner journey
